J Mascis And The Fog - If That's How It's Gotta Be lyrics

Said my freedom Said please stay Said I'd waited Amma say And I ran away from living Thought I wanted it that way Every step I should be given But I'm stuck feeling just pain But if that's how its gotta be Can we love We should pray Can we trust I'll go our way If I knew why I'd be living except I wanted it that way And I tried I'm always trying And I wanted you to stay But if that's how its gotta be In my freedom In my pain Will it leave me Amma say And I wanted to believe in That you wanted it that was And my love has lost its feeling And my love what should I say And I tried to let you love me And I wanted it that way And I know you'll always love me Can you please help make me stay But if that's how its gotta be To make me try to be And I run away from living Every step I should be giving But I'm stuck feeling just pain If I knew why I'd be living Except I wanted it that way And I tried I'm always trying And I wanted you to say that's how its gotta be