J-Hotz - Some Emotional Bullsh** lyrics

I was like 13 I seen you at the scene Those HMS basketball games were the thing Thought you was hotter than a wing Saw you lick ya elbow & I was like ding So I went home & had a dream, Martin Luther king Never knew years later we'd be a fling sh** I was stalking ya MySpace When I finally pressed add it was like goin to third base I mean like what was the worse case You'd hit decline & then I'd go to my hiding place But sh** that's not what happened Even though I still knew I had no chances There was no mutual attraction I had the characteristics of a fat black b**h Looking like Jill Scott in her prime Picking out my afro in my spare time Even back then I was writing rhymes Eventually I forgot you and everything was fine Now lets fast forward a bit It's 9th grade & I feel like the sh** And somehow we started talking How that may have happened I found it shocking But im okay with that Cause a relationship is what I got at And it was cool and all That whole one month I was feeling off the wall And then we broke up I was feeling sad like a homeless pup Now it's a couple months later Lived at the park thought I was a skater We talked again so that made life greater I always tried to be on my best behavior So the talking led to a date Date to a relationship I think that's great Guess this was an attempt to recreate Everything seemed to be going straight And this time it lasted longer Our bond was becoming stronger & stronger Over summer three words were said Often represented by the color red You said it first and I said it back The feelings were there it wasn't wack But 10 months in We reached the end Back to the part where we'd be just friends And I was sad as sh** Take care on repeat I threw a fit But by the turn of the year Everything normal and I was filled with cheer Feeling like nothing could stop this I was in a state of pure bliss Now there's nothing to do but to reminisce Like sh** you were my first French kiss And to think its all my fault Wish that night I would have had a default I was intoxicated sh** maybe even borderline wasted And some things had been stated They left me to be hated Wish they could be vacated Wish that problem I never created That night was quite starry But sh**ty like safari There's only one thing to say My darling I'm sorry