J-Dog - The Diary lyrics

[Chorus: Deuce] 'Cause I don't wanna be like this I've been running these streets for too long now I've got nothing, it's true, but this song now But the further I go, I wanna go home 'Cause I don't wanna be like this I've been running these streets for too long now I've got nothing, it's true, but this song now But the further I go, I wanna go home [Verse 1: Johnny 3 Tears] I f**ing swear that I care but it's hard when you stare Into the bottom of a bottle that is empty and bare Oh my desolate soul in my desolate home It's my desolate role, yeah I'm here all alone I can't think of a reason to get the f** out of bed Curtains closed, lights are off, am I alive or dead? I haven't shaved in a week, I always slur when I speak Tolerance at its peak, another fifth just to sleep Oh woe is me, woe is me I guess I need love And hoes you see, hoes you see, I'm just in a rut And I swear I'm trying baby, please baby don't leave Goddamn I'm a f**-up but I guess that's just me So I sit in my room and I cry in my bed Thinking about all the sh** that made me wrong in my head I keep trying to climb but it seems so steep Pour myself a f**ing whiskey and go back to sleep b**h [Chorus: Deuce] 'Cause I don't wanna be like this I've been running these streets for too long now I've got nothing, it's true, but this song now But the further I go, I wanna go home 'Cause I don't wanna be like this I've been running these streets for too long now I've got nothing, it's true, but this song now But the further I go, I wanna go home [Verse 2: Johnny 3 Tears] I watch my mama cry, she says "baby, why?" I say "baby died, baby's gone like a suicide." I don't think you'll see him soon Mom, stay out my room Mom Tell Daddy that I hate that motherf**er like you Mom I sing this sh** for you Danny, Sascha and Jordon These beers keep getting warmer every time that I hold them I pour this out for you like a partner in crime It's a part of the times when you're sick in the mind Yeah I'm sick, oh so sick, I'm so sick of this sh** Yeah I'm lit, oh so lit, I'm so f**ed up off it So I stumble around, till I stumble-fall down Into this puddle of my tears laying here on the ground When you've got nothing left you've got nothing left to lose With my last left single breath I'll still be singing to you So when you bury me man you better bury me deep And sing along to this song 'cause you're broken like me [Chorus: Deuce] 'Cause I don't wanna be like this I've been running these streets for too long now I've got nothing, it's true, but this song now But the further I go, I wanna go home 'Cause I don't wanna be like this I've been running these streets for too long now I've got nothing, it's true, but this song now But the further I go, I wanna go home [Bridge: Deuce] And I wanna go back to the start! Back where we started from! And I know it's been so long! I was wrong, I was wrong, I was wrong all along! And I wanna go back to the start! Back where we started from! And I know it's been so long! I was wrong, I was wrong, I was wrong all along! [Chorus: Deuce] 'Cause I don't wanna be like this I've been running these streets for too long now I've got nothing, it's true, but this song now But the further I go, I wanna go home 'Cause I don't wanna be like this I've been running these streets for too long now I've got nothing, it's true, but this song now But the further I go, I wanna go home