J Dilla - Who I Am lyrics

Instrumental: Sunbeams by J.Dilla [Intro] {Sigh} Alright, let's do this for real now Let's go Yeah, yep Yeah, yeah, yep (This is gonna sound like every other mix-tape but I just need to get this off right now) [First Verse] I'm feeling these good vibes/ I'm tryna get involved Replaying this Dilla tape/ rewind/ reload Revealing my inner state/ I was frozen Cold-hearted and broken in a wicked place Mentally/ drained of all my energy Empty at the thought of things that used to hype me up Now they get to me… The second these events occurred it left me out of breath And I'd expect the worst always weighing on me heavily Thinking I'd never see the man I once envisioned as a kid When I was little I was wishing to get bigger so I could leave school I hated it/ Uni made me feel more like a human being But my school made me a prisoner But don't get me wrong I'm thankful to my parents Forking money out to put me there I made some mates I value still Apologies from me cause I feel like I don't really make that fully clear When I really could/ days pa** in a blur in a daze Carving these words on a page masking the hurt Phase half of the world out of my brain Hardly return to that state silent and yearning For that napalm to just burn At least I'd feel some release I could just (breathe…) Maybe one day see what the rest of the world sees Maybe…I mean there's nothing really special about me I'm just doing all I can to make sure no one can doubt me I'm just hounded by my screw-ups Drowning in these sewers/ my OCD that hold it keeps Bound to every nuance but that's who I am [Hook] That's all I'll say Is there any other way I can tell you how I feel? That's who I am Let me be now [Second Verse] Looking out my window See the sky/ see the trees/ see the greens See the colours/ see my dreams on repeat Same thing/ same feeling running through me when I'm sleep And my mind designs stories defined by life's hallways I stroll through in the day/ I lay my head to rest And they regroup again to formulate the feature for the night And it plays through/ immersed within the details The people and the sights/ the minor nuances The finer points/ the like… The scenes get so real that the feelings they evoke go so deep To the point I even wake up kinda shaken by the whole thing Little catches in my throat like when I reunite with mates It wasn't real/ it's what I want When I see my family members that aren't there It's something I suppress but deep down that I can't bear I feel like in my dreams is where I'd rather be But I can make it happen/ course I can The real dreams start here But its hard tryna mentally depart from it when it's no longer real Feels more like a movie scene you know you're watching When you start to lucid dream/ it's too surreal That beautiful and so serene piece of art you find yourself inside of It's that Pica**o/ Da Vinci and Basquiat colliding with your soul Violently exploding in a moment that you capture in a memory That no one else will have or understand and that they'll never see (f**'s sake…) Outside time and defined by you I guess you wouldn't get it if you never had my night times too Double up my hyperactive brain/ get a bigger house Cut from other life and have it rain/ open up the windows The curtains and make it black/ pitch in fact Have a ball kicked at my ribs ‘til they crack Put wood under my back/ amplify the music in my head ‘Til it makes my ears ring/ blow dust into my eyes ‘til they itch Wait…I take it back…I don't want you to see I'll be less unique/ this is the kinda thing that gives me power And lets me see some kinda purpose or direction And potentially success/ it's monumental Even when I'm leaving Uni truly I'll still be a student man Let me sing a life of learning that's just who I am [Outro] That's who I am Let me be now That's who I am Let me be now Let me be now Let me be now That's who I am, who I am, who I am Who I am