J.C. Jamez - Thanatophobia lyrics

[Hook: J.C Jamez] Baby, I'm lonely Can somebody hold me? It feels like I'm falling now I can't hold my ground [Verse 1: Brandon Simmons] For some reason it feels like I'm being defeated Fighting a losing battle, my energy is depleted Deleting all these painful thoughts and memories from my banks But thanks to my sentimental ways I can't get my mind to change It's strange how my mind works, bottle it all up Emotionally I'm really soft even though I act tough But I still feel like it ain't enough to make me snap And with that type of thinking I could do us in, in fact My tires are losing tract and I refuse to pay to have them replaced I've got the time and money, but I'm too set in my ways No new roads to pave, I'm riding in a circle drive I want to get out, but I'm steady just trying to survive I don't want a helping hand, yeah that's what I'd say But I am a hypocrite, just to reiterate Maybe that's why I always feel so alone Even though I'm constantly surrounded by people between work and home [Hook] [Verse 2: Brandon Simmons] If there was a sk** tree for low self-esteem, I'd be capping it I'm about as useless as Stephen Strange after the accident But I ain't looking for a cure, I'm seeking a divergent Because I like change about as much as a grumpy merchant Converging with my conscience that my way of coping is nonsense But I'm still blocking and locking myself away from the topic I can't promise I haven't lost it But for what it costs, I'm not completely frosted Like Tom Kenny making time for an adventure Why I thought that would make sense, I don't even remember But I'm still here and I'm still me, no matter how lonely I force myself to be or to feel I just don't want to feel anything real I mean I do, I just don't know how to deal with it I'll just take my 51 cards and count flowers on the wall Call me what you want but that doesn't bother me at all [Hook x2]