Isuppose - A Girl Named Ruby lyrics

[Verse: 1 isuppose] Ruby thought it was really cool, to ditch school She was only sixteen, always actin' a fool But let's go back a couple months when everything was different She would study all night 'cuz going to college was her mission She had a few friends, but was a loner for the most part A sweet girl with a fake smile to cover up her broken heart She walked trough the school halls, nobody ever noticed her It's like she didn't exist and that made her heart go colder Her parents gave her everything, her life seemed perfect But deep down inside, Ruby was feeling worthless She was tired of being lonely, tired of being neglected She just wanted to be happy and for once to be accepted Ruby was an angel but her inner self was screaming for help And it's hard to get to heaven when guided by demons But she started acting wild, and using her mother's make-up Wearing short dresses and her breast size were a-cups So she stuffed her bra with tissues, started wearing heels She would look in the mirror and smile 'cause finally she feels like a real woman And so now she's telling lies, she would lie about her age and party with older guys That gave her all the attention, made her feel like a queen So she started having s** and doing d** like a fiend She slept with every guy she met Rumours quickly got around At school they called her a s*ut, now she's known around the town So she started feeling depressed, she would stay up at night scared Praying to the Lord to wake her up from her nightmare But God never responded so she started cutting herself Feeling like she's trapped in hell, with nobody there to help Put the blade up on her skin, brings comfort from within She's disgusted by her sins, fighting a war she'll never win Now she's battling her demons wishing d**h arrived soon It's been a few weeks, and she's locked up in her room And now she found out she's pregnant And she's mentally exhausted So Ruby started punching her stomach until she lost it Now she's crying all night, instead of smiling in her arms Her baby is dead inside of her, she's living life with no guard A life without morality, hypnotized by reality, victimized by her agony, criticized by her family And I know you can relate 'Cause demons come and it's hard to hide from 'em So I know every girl, has a Ruby deep inside of 'em Whether you're sad or lonely, you're feeling like the world's against you Or being judged by others and backstabbed by your friends too This is for the thick women who hate looking in the mirror Feeling ashamed of the way they look Living life with the fear of being rejected This is for the girls who've been affected by rape or domestic violence and the ones who've been disrespected By a man who you trusted The one person you gave your soul to was the same man that treated you like sh** and controlled you This is for the girls that make mistakes and the ones that need help And before asking God for forgiveness you must forgive yourself Suicide won't solve anything so put the gun and knife down 'Cuz at the end it's up to you to want to turn your life around I know about the pain, ' cuz I used to live in hell And I know alot of guys that know Ruby aswell The tough guys, the gangsta's, the drug dealers, the thugs Livin' the street life but all they really want is love So they bang just to fit in, and disrespect women And Ruby is bomb as f** so soon enough they'll all give in We live a life of sin with the pressure to act a certain way Just to be accepted by society but I say [Verse: 2 isuppose] You stop caring what people think, ain't no need to act tough If you fall to the ground you gotta get your a** up 'Cuz while most people sat around waitin' for a hand I picked myself up and proved that I was a man I felt like Jesus carrying the cross walking through the sand Sacrificing my life for the ones I love I hope you understand That nobody's perfect I used to frown at my reflection, my insecurities ate me up They made me sad, they made me question The true strength in my heart So my weakness had me stressin' 'Till I learned to value myself and perfected my imperfections I been suicidal I've been abusive I've been an addict I've neglected bibles I've turned to music and expressed my pa**ion now I'm changin' the world and all it took was a strong mind And now Ruby looks in the mirror, and sees her beauty for the first time in a very long time And I promise that you can change 'Cuz if Ruby changed her life around then you can do the same [Outro: Unknown] Unless we can help turn her around, to see that it's more worth living than dying, that there is something to live for, she probably will complete the act of suicide, at some point