Islands - Nil lyrics

I've been drifting I've been drinking too much Been thinking I'm not thinking clearly enough Are there two of me? It feels like there are two of me One is my enemy and One's sent to deliver me When I'm drowning I like drowning alone Don't need no one to tell me To pull up the rope I can't have only one No I can't just have only one It's all or none none Now you know that it's true So you, Leave nil for me I'll do different things But I like them all Blue is beautiful Curl up in a ball And don't feel anything I Don't want to feel anything It's more than a feeling And it's more than the real thing Are you impressed With how depressed I've become Better get your angels to go bang on a drum But they don't recognize me They Don't seem to recognize I was baptized but they pay it no mind So you, Leave nil for me Leave nil for me Please, Keep it away from me Keep it away from me