Irrational - Misery lyrics

I've created a mess, acted on feelings Emotions will drive, but I'm not steering I've damaged this, and it can't be repaired I'm afraid I enjoy, misery too much They felt like good reasons It's time to face myself alone cause I've pissed off The people who care the most I don't know why I see things this way but I can't seem to stop I CAN'T SEEM TO STOP I feel tears for my anger and tears for my pain I feel tears for my pride and I don't know why Why this misery's mine Why this misery's mine Can't be the way that I want inside But I strive and I strive and I strive I've created a mess, and buried my feelings Virtue is lost, and I'm not healing I gracefully fake, a smiling face Burned a hole in my chest, while trying my best They felt like good reasons It's time to face myself alone cause I've pissed off The people who care the most I don't know why I see things this way but I can't seem to stop I CAN'T SEEM TO STOP I feel tears for my anger and tears for my pain I feel tears for my pride and I don't know why Why this misery's mine Why this misery's mine Can't be the way that I want inside But I strive and I strive and I strive WHY?