IRatz - Almost Home lyrics

[Verse 1] The only walls that block me are the ones that I build But my cement mixers broke and the bricks are foam And the utensils are stuck in my throat but nothing I can feel 'Till I try express myself through real serious conversations in 1 on 1 situations at night Tryna talk me out of it b**h you wasting your time God said no extra sense would be placed in my mind That's what he decided, what he says is final like spinal fluid I was dying I knew it That once chance I had to get by and I blew it That's why I'ma fulfil this vocation of music This is an example of how not to let that moment pa** you Nobody wants to die but everyone has to It's the way of life and it works Cowardly people will spend the rest of their time in the dirt But people like me will have their name up in lights It was up to me to climb to stadium heights You live then you die but inbetween's the real test But until then just I hope the trouble neglects ya, the angels protect ya Life live to perfection and make the heavens accept ya Do it how you do it but my way is to make songs real and infectious [Hook] I'm almost home Just know you fixed me girl Life on track, f** retiring when I'm 50 girl I done run through hell's fire just to get to ya And to think, I loved you and I barely knew ya Family faces are all filled with smiles (Well not in person but I'd heard stuff) They just be happy I took you down the basilic' aisle I'm almost home But I'm sorry if I took too long (okay okay) [Verse 2] Ain't tryna fit in I was born to stand out Even from a young age I had it all planned out Now that's a lie cos around year 10 I span out Out of control, at school and at home, nowhere to go Not even the football pitch I was ashamed of what I'd done I couldn't even look at sh** I was old enough make decisions, but young enough to make bad ones I cringe at this but never regret the things I have done No remorse for my sins, immortal I have become Learn from my mistakes and how can I improve I asked em Then my raps spun and I never let up till the grands come that I can give to my grandson of the future I'ma say it now you'll forever ask “What she do'tcha?” I'ma respond nutin you gotta let one thing shoot ya Down cos that was the boost that (ouch!) I needed, the thing to give me the oomph to Prove her and fill everyone I met with regret Soon as she said those words I left then I leapt To unbelievable highs, too far so I'm unsee-able by the eye I'ma get everything, conquering even till I die I want it all, I don't mean to be greedy but I'm starving This game is like a turkey I'm the one who's carving then eating Greeting people at the front door when they arrive then leaving I've decided to wake and chase I'm tired of dreaming Tired of being tired and grieving cos I'm tired of everyone leaving me alone busting semen Tired of this city and tired of being bored I ain't playing no more Tired of my mom giving me that k**ing stare Cos she's tired of me being tired of not being a millionaire [Verse 3] Same things that you smile make you cry Something so good can be so bad I could never figure out why The very thing I loved in life was k**ing me and I couldn't conquer it I was gunna get back up and avenge this damage, nothing was stopping it New dreams don't replace the old ones, the old ones just never came true That failure turned my brain insane, became a replica of Beirut So much fighting and pain, much came down to a day't school Rumours flying and I could never get hold of the truth and that proved fateful I've never been bullied but forever been envied Dope in everything I did I was pushing the ten speed Mentally strong nutin would prevent me From reaching my goal and not succumbing to pretending Living a life where I always did me Set to be a catastrophe around sixteen Couldn't get laid or grades but I flipped that upside down Dunno how I did it but I did I'm up high now I got high ground and no one can touch me Coming too hard in my games no-one to f** with Going to school depressed, a façade, a crooked smile But look at me now yeah I know it took a while Somehow I knew we'd see better days My mom's waiting to hear it go tell her mayn Proven fact that to me success is home That became clearer and apparent the more I grown And how good is it to know, certain to think that I'm almost home [Hook]