Ion Dissonance - Substantial Guilt Vs. The Irony Of Enjoying lyrics

And I lay numb, waiting for something worst to happen Sweet innocence, it happened so suddenly She crossed my path on the way to nothingness I knew that was encountering an angel of Purity And in the process I've quickly understood That I dont deserve her, none of us, humans, do Beholding such a fatality leaves you empty with bitter grief Life seems to be tarnished and sour, raped in its very essence But sorrow is rapidly replaced by frustration, envy & despair Dressed in White, A child so alone, so fragile and beautiful has dawn To hold her close was exhilarating in a most vicious way I felt so weak, yet empowered somehow One thing leading to another, I knew then, that if I could not experience nor possess Purity, I would at least try to take it and choke the life out of it And I did, oh why, I dont know but I did... Violently, I've pummelled her face with my bare fists Until she became awfully deformed, bleeding and dying, all twisted up in terror... I have forcefully replaced every teeth in her mouth by razorsharp shards of gla**, Slowly inserting every pieces of gla** in the little one's gum Why was I laughing? (In complete (dis)harmony with her screams) I guess that is my Art, To inflict upon Purity the only thing I can give, And unfortunetly its not love I should've feel guilty, I know, But it simply didn't occur