International Show - Tough Luck lyrics

[Verse 1] Where'd I go from here? Every step is like moving blind in a room of spears All my lines I keep all inside are like old affairs Tied up, tryna figure out if my ghost appeared 'Cause this can't be real, I ain't ever felt like this Nah... Got me all blank I never talk 'cause I feel like I tanked And I know it's my fault but I say that it ain't 'cause I ain't ever dealt with this Nah... My balance on negative and all my grades don't reflect what I said it is Now I just hide all my feelings embedded in saying "I'm good." But really I'm lying. I never use what I got on my side (help) 'Cause I feel, if I do, that would mean I declined And my family knows! Maybe I'm clueless. Maybe I'm really just blinded by hubris and I gotta chose it: accept that I'm losing and go! [Hook] I don't really know what I'ma do right now... Tough luck I don't really know what I'ma do right now... Tough luck And my sister's worried about me... Ain't nothing I can really do right now except trust And my girl keep wanting my company... And my landlord's all done with me Ain't nothing I can really do right now and that s**s I don't really know what I'ma do right now... Tough luck [Verse 2] Yeah... And that's on the daily... I get my mail and I know that it's crazy That I've been too scared to just open it lately 'Cause I'm "running low," man I know they want, like, the whole thing f** it, I'll be like the president with all my debits... No, you can't approach me With all the sh** they be asking 'bout! Dodging the numbers they pa**ing out! How did my sisters get through it? Only got me... And I feel like my cash is out... That I don't even wanna date and I don't wanna tell her straight That I'm "maxed"... I'm out... I don't even spend the cake on any dinner plates It's almost like fasting now And that's how I'll feel 'till my album's out! 'Cause I put in my last... Yeah, all of my pennies - all that was with me I just hope that it lasts... Then bring me in plenty... Like five hundred milli... in credit or cash! 'Cause I'll be subpoenaed... if I don't bring all my fees in They'll be evicting my a**! Like "you gotta go! You gotta get on the post! You gotta tell 'em you're broke! Get all your folks, tell ‘em you need them the most! Or you could sleep on the coast! And I know they'll be saying or thinking I'm stupid Like "why did you do this? Why did you put all your pa**ion in music? Why ain't you tell us so we could approve it? Now you gotta blow!!" [Hook] I don't really know what I'ma do right now... Tough luck I don't really know what I'ma do right now... Tough luck And my sister's worried about me... Ain't nothing I can really do right now except trust And my girl keep wanting my company... And my landlord's all done with me Ain't nothing I can really do right now and that s**s I don't really know what I'ma do right now... Tough luck