Heartbeat racing in like speed addiction Frantic, pacing now without restriction Walls come crashing down I'm too weak to run Smother me in perspiration Strong overload of dry regurgitation Smacked on the back without the choking fit That should've come first, should've come first This empire's dying anyone Can you wait to see the sin on his face? And he knows it's not a joke when he hears the last words His son ever spoke Why can't I be alone To fight these things and hurt myself? Why can't I be a victim If a victim's how I've felt? Free to look proud on those I drag down with me Free to disbelieve I'm b**hing, no one listens, witnessing desecration I'm b**hing, no one listens, witnessing resurrection I'm b**hing, no one listens, fighting this addiction's k**ing me I'm unforgiven It's at times like this that I wish that I could die It's at times like this that I wish that I could die It's at times like this I wish I could die Not worth it, just not worth it Who will help me be myself? No one even talks to me This blossom Save it before it's too late or it won't save itself Free to want nothing more than what I lost of me Free to disbelieve in everything Why can't I be alone To fight these things and hurt myself? Why can't I be a victim If a victim's how I've felt? Free to look proud on those I drag down with me Free to disbelieve I won't know the pain I've caused until it stops I won't know the pain I've caused until it finally stops hurting me 'Til it stops hurting me... Why can't I be alone To fight these things and hurt myself? Why can't I be a victim? A f**ed-up victim Stop hurting me Stop hurting me I can't stop hurting me Mother please forgive this Father please forgive this God forgive this I die