Input - A Letter to Myself lyrics

This is a poor excuse for creativity / A backlash at my violated liberty Stand close to me and you'll feel the panic / This is dedicated to unnecessary damage I can still hear you yelling from the bathroom / I don't wanna leave now, but I know I'll have to Who knows what happens after the d**h of laughter / I realize the termination of this chapter It's in the best interest for both our bloodstreams / My veins connect to form a clot it's self destructing This relationship was nothing but a disease / I folded it to save it but got lost within the crease Now I'm hoping I can't recognize the pictures / Blurred out faces and the bodies are disfigured My memory doesn't serve me so well / The misery is merely just a mask I can't unveil There's a history that both of us are tied to / Underneath the arguments and faces that we lied to Every second adds more fuel to the flames / I cut off the oxygen along with the pain So let this story motivate the resurrection / Of what you do we're with no recollection Of that night the light was so contaminating / Here's a stain that has left me sadly waiting Another chance to improve my response time / Something here keeps coming back to haunt my- Non-existence in the path that you've chosen / My heartbeat stops and my lips remain frozen It's colder than it ever was / Shivering and glancing at the scars on my thumbs Matchsticks would ignite when I snapped / Ask this man what he would do to get that back Anything if it was one sober evening / A witness to your wants and everything that lies between them Never lost in the fantasies or daydreams / This is reality confused with a maybe I don't think this should be placed on the shelf / A re-evaluation of acceptance and of self I boarded up every door inside my house / Forwarding the messages to unknown accounts I'm just a puppet, strung up to crucifixes / Who will miss this abusiveness of wishes I'm not the person that I thought I was / Traveling through time on a search for love So let this story motivate the resurrection / Of what you do we're with no recollection Of that night the light was so contaminating / Here's a stain that has left me sadly waiting Another chance to improve my response time / Something here keeps coming back to haunt my- Non-existence in the path that you've chosen / My heartbeat stops and my lips remain frozen At the discretion of the listeners health This is a letter that I wrote to myself Not to include any persons from my past / And present interactions are never going to last I only travel to escape that sense of home / I only write 'cause it's the only thing I know I only breathe for the people around me / I live for you all but you could all live without me You could all live without me But you all You could all live without me