Incentives - Self-Decay lyrics

When I close my eyes, you're there every time The realisation that I failed you and I'm the one to blame How I hate myself for the hell I put you through Now I see what leaving did to you Who am I without regret? And how do I correct the mistakes I've made? What will it take to break this cycle of self-decay? Selfish and I proved it I left you in need and I knew it And I can't bring myself to talk about it, how I failed (how I failed) How I never looked back How I took the easy escape from what we had Deep down I know I was the one setting myself up to fall (deep down I know) My answers are questions Lead me through my mental streams A seeded lie, and faults are mine Counting candles I decline Saluting my own mind It's a fight to find my sovereignty Choosing to find a way born often here I wade through the fiction, I find that I am alive I hope somehow these words make their way back to you Know that I always cared, that I'm still thinking of you Where do I turn when I can't turn back to you? Where do I stand if it's not next to you? Next to you