and when i was all alone facing my adolescence looking forward to cleaning house and reading books and maybe learning bridge so that i could fit into acceptable society acceptably you came along and loved me for being black and b**hy hateful and scared and you came along and cared that i got all the things necessary to adulthood and even made sure i wouldn't hate my mother or father and you even understood that i should love peppe but not too much and give to gary but not all of me and keep on moving 'til i found me and now you're sick and have been hurt for some time and i've felt guilty and impotent for not being able' to give yourself to you as you gave yourself to me