In Dying Arms - Caught in the Balance lyrics

I'm caught in the balance Dangling by these chains of my mind I might be next to you But I'm so far away I'm sick of blaming you You were right by my side Tired of pretending My life is a f**ing lie No more holding it in All of my peers think i'm losing my sh** I know i've been changing But you've stayed the same You think you can see me? I am one with the shade I am one with the shade I'm stuck and i'm loving it Why can't I just f**ing coexist I know i'm a problem I am the antagonist I am caught in the balance Why must I feel one with the darkness? We are stuck in the silence Why must we feel one with this sickness? I know why you never look at me in the eye I know the reason your skin is tight I am a monster You think you can see me? I can't even see myself The pressure is building My wall's are crashing down My wall's are crashing down I am caught in the balance Why must I feel one with the darkness We are stuck in the silence Why must we feel one with this sickness One with this sickness You think you can see me? I'm one with the shade