Impure Wilhelmina - January lyrics

I cannot be all day long So clever, so clear-headed so broken down I've had enough of the fudging But tomorrow again I won't face anything I'm waiting for the dawn Holding my breath as if I was gone Kissing your neck as if you were here I've no one to love only the new day to fear Is it a new phase for me I have not cried since January It might be the sign To switch and embrace the final decline I've had such an empty life And it's a great weight off my mind To reach physical pain The divine gift offered to an old man Childhood is gone Love never found Life almost done And d**h welcome