to whom it may be of any concern: i forget this lesson each time that its' learned, this argument that i try to defend, it's not logic, it's a means to an end, it's a fiendish ploy, like you mean me no harm. it's so misconceived... but it works like a charm. if my fingers clench too tightly, it's because i'm afraid i'll lose my grip. if i think about you nightly it's because i'm afraid i might forget. excuse my mess as i pitch this fit, it bothers me more than i can admit...my face goes flush my head starts to ache. i think this may be my biggest mistake...