Icon For Hire - Panic Attacks lyrics

I'm sorry I'm here again I'm sorry I'm starting to wear again Sorry you're tired of hearing it I'm tired of carrying all the comparison Sorry I'm feeling it I'm sorry I su*k at concealing it If I were real with you I'd tell it all If you were real with me you'd tell me You don't think I'm real at all So who do you think you are? Without me you're nothing Don't mean to cause no alarm But I'm all you got You treat me like you forgot How we got started Now I'm discarded Not sure what I did but I don't belong here If you don't need me I'll hang back But you're gonna feel me when the panic attacks Yeah, remember that? You and me, see, we go way back Had your best interest, had your back But you weren't interested in that And I do my best to shut up 'Cause that's all you ever try to tell me when I come up So I stay in the basement and try to hold the breakdowns back But the basic math says this won't last How much longer do you think you have One of these days you'll totally crash You'll look at me like, "What just happened?" That's what I've been trying to keep from happening So I keep you happy, I keep you happy 'Til someday suddenly sadly You're snapping Oh and the tiniest crack Spreads like fire, shatters the glass You try holding it back But beggars can't choose when the panic attacks I'm sorry I'm sensitive But not really sorry 'cause you're just pretending it ain't what it is Ain't what we are Like you think you really got us this far And that's all in spite of me Really now? And you wish I wasn't here Really now? Gave you the warnings, gave the signs You just ignore me, pay me no mind You left me no options I gotta stop this Can't have you thinking that you really got this Not sabotaging just trying to caution You before you put us straight in the coffin I'll make you nauseous feel like you lost it Head to the basement make you my hostage For so many years I couldn't stop it Now I'll make you feel like I feel I promise Oh and the tiniest crack Spreads like fire, shatters the glass You try holding it back But beggars can't choose when the panic attacks Oh and just the tiniest crack Can break you into pieces just like that There's no holding it back 'Cause beggars can't choose when the panic attacks I'm sorry I'm sorry I'm sorry I'm sorry I doubted you Sorry I made you shut up I couldn't face the truth It scared me too much So I kept you locked up 'Cause I didn't know Know that I needed you 'Til you let me know I'm sorry I doubted you I'm sorry I made you shut up I couldn't face the truth 'Cause it scared me too much So I kept you locked up 'Cause I didn't know Know that I needed you But I do now Oh and the tiniest crack Spreads like fire, shatters the glass You try holding it back But beggars can't choose when the panic attacks Oh and just the tiniest crack Can break you into pieces just like that There's no holding it back 'Cause beggars can't choose when the panic attacks