Hussalonia - Leaning Into Chaos lyrics

I used to be explosive I used to be on fire I used to consume myself with desire But now I'm calmly thinking about chaos Harmlessly flirting with chaos Safely leaning into chaos with you I used to be immortal I used to harness flight Now I just want a place to stay every night While I'm slightly dreaming about chaos Casually eyeing up chaos Lightly leaning into chaos with you It's better to have a troubled mind that's well behaved Than to be in trouble dreaming of being saved Tell me more about destruction Tell me I'm all alone Tell me all these awful things in my suburban home Because I'm only considering chaos, safely slouching towards chaos, living down the street from chaos with you