Human Debris - Downpour lyrics

I wake up in this pain that runs from my head to my feet My brain, the dumb source that poisons what I feel I lift my head to the pitch-black sky above Drenched in the rain that ain't about to stop The fairy-tale is well and truly over It ended in anguish Struggle to regain self control Pain lasts longer Days grows shorter And life flashes by 'til I wither and die Is it worth it feeling numb? As they all turn their backs on me And leave me screaming for help Still drowning in seas of blank abhorrent perpetuity I am the one who can't unmake what I've done Unable to solve it the normal way, staying sane With no one left, to stop the rain Pull the plug, for the very last time Once and for all, before the final curtain call Never again! No more gla** will slit No more nightmares to resist Erase my memory I've got to see it clear Let go! Let go of my soul! I feel it fading away To a place of eternal confinement I need to stop its descent The sky is crying tears I hope it washes all off me Grabbing at straws, to leave the flood behind Demons from my past Pulling me into decay some more I need to find a window to jump right back Before I crack in a world so cold and black