Hotel Books - Can You Do Me A Kindness? lyrics

I don't go outside as much as I used to I'm not home, just in my house forgetting myself or at least trying to But not forgiving until come back out I have a light on in my room During the day I hardly notice it But at night it keeps me from falling asleep I have this dream of knowing you During the day I hardly notice it But at night it keeps me from all other dreams The numbing of time taught me how to finally fall asleep I just wish you'd come home and teach me how to wake back up This is torture, this is truth, this is unfamiliar pain This is following an ache but this is love There's a railroad track behind my house At night I can hear freight being taken to retail But I'm still not sold on letting myself out I never knew it was cold until I knew how the heat felt You were always warm when put in warm place But I was too shallow to contain the same flame There's a nicotine patch on my night stand You never did quit but at least you tried Or maybe you did but I never saw you lift a cigarette to your lips I was preoccupied looking into my reflection and the way you said you felt alive Your infection inflects the walls each night And the shades of color are all black and white Just like your goodbye You said to stop letting your love consume my mind I never did quit but at least you tried I don't go outside as much as I used to I'm not home, I'm just trying to sleep at night Forgetting your love or at least trying to You said goodbye, now just say goodnight