Hotel Books - So Fond Of lyrics

It's a dream, you and her in a tree, K-I-S-S-I-N-G. What if there was truth to the statement that first came love, then came marriage? But it's not that way. That's not the song we sing; Sex without a condom is the new engagement ring. And the pain of rings, so demeaning. I would change so much just to feel something. And I said I was holding your heart, but it was just for show. We said, “‘Til d**h do us part”, but darling, I died such a long time ago. And since then, we've been fed, but only bread that's been turned back into stone. I used to starve 'cause I was hungry, now I starve 'cause I'm alone. I had one god in my heart, but so many demons in my head. I took life in little parts; life and d**h and life and d**h and life and d**h again. Then that image of waking up next to you in bed, my blood red, pumping it up to feel a beat again. But then that flat line. I'm fine, I swear. Broken down, shut out, and nothing there. Where, oh where, did we let this love fade again? Walk down that sermon so I don't feel so condemned. d**h was my lover, and conviction just a friend. And then a dead end, I wish I could pretend So then she would at least trust me again. She said, “Call, I'll still be awake at that hour”. Congratulations darling, I haven't fallen asleep in weeks. Withering away like trees, gra** and flowers. God forgive me, you said blessed are the mean. I'm submitting myself to something great, but then when I wake, I find out it doesn't even relate to that pulsating headache. No caffeine can calm the anxiety of knowing it's all fake. God, I am awake, please wash out these stains. God, I am awake, please wash out these stains. God, I am awake, please wash out these stains. God, I am awake, I wanna be clean again. I'm ready to be clean again.