Hopsin - Ill of mind 7 lyrics

It's us, find power Live life, mind power It's us, find power Live life, mind power Yo, f** anybody I might alarm Life is a tour, I sit and ride along Taking some notes and then I write the song I'm staring down the road my life has gone Is this where I belong? Is it wrong to not believe in right and wrong? My mental state is f**ing me up And I cried a pond while asking you for some answers But we don't have that type of bond That my desires gone with the way that I've been living lately If I died right now, you'd turn the fire on Sick of this bullsh**, n***as call me a sellout Cause I hopped on Christianity so strongly then I fell out Now I'm avoiding questions like a scared dog with his tail down Feeling so damn humiliated because they looking at me like I'm hellbound What story should I tell now? I'll just expose the truth I'm so close to the f**ing edge, I should be close to you But who the f** are You? You never showed the proof And I'm only f**ing human yo, what am I supposed to do? There's way too many different religions with vivid descriptions Begging all f**ing men and women to listen I can't even beat my dick without getting convicted These ain't wicked decisions, I got different intentions I've been itching to get it, I've been given a**istance But the whole f**ing system is twisted Now I'm dealing with this backlash because Marcus isn't a Christian And I've been told that my sinful life is an addiction But I can't buy it, it's just too hard to stand beside it I need an answer and humans can't provide it I look at the Earth and Sun and I can tell a genius man designed it It's truly mind blowing, I can't deny it Is heaven real? Is it fake? Is it really how I fantasize it? Where's the Holy Ghost at? How long's it take a man to find it? My mind's a nonstop tape playing and I can't rewind it You gave me a Bible and expect me not to an*lyze it? I'm frustrated and you provoked it I'm not reading that motherf**ing book because a human wrote it I have a f**ing brain, you should know it You gave it to me to think to avoid every useless moment It was a mission that I had to abort Cause humans be lying, we're such an inaccurate source It's gon' be hard to put me back on the course Next Jehovah's Witness to come on my porch I swear I'm slammin' the door A lot of folks believe it though, but I'm not surprised Humans are f**ing dumb, still thinking that Pac's alive I ain't trying to take your legacy and torch it down I'm just saying: I ain't heard sh** from the horse's mouth Just sheep always telling stories of older guys Who were notarized by you when you finally vocalized Now I'm supposed to bow my head and close my eyes And somehow let the Holy Ghost arise Sounds like a f**ing Poltergeist Show yourself and then boom it's done Every rumor's gone, I no longer doubt this sh**, you're the One I'll admit that my sinful ways was stupid fun And all my old habits can hop on top of a roof to plunge I'll donate to a charity that could use the funds f** the club, instead of b**hes I'd hang with a group of nuns And everyone that I ran into would know what I came to do I wouldn't take a step unless it was in the name of You I hate the fact that I have to believe You haven't been chatting with me like you did Adam and Eve And I ain't seen no f**ing talking snake unravel from trees With an apple to eat, that sh** never happens to me I don't know if you do or don't exist, it is driving me crazy Send your condolences, this is me reaching to you so don't forget If hell is truly your pit of fire and I get thrown in it I'mma probably regret the fact that I ever wrote this sh** My gut feeling says it's all fake I hate to say it but f** it, sh** I done lost faith This isn't a small phase, my perspective's all changed My thoughts just keep picking sh** apart all day And in my mind I make perfect sense If you aren't real then all my prayers aren't worth a cent That would mean that I could just make up what my purpose is And I could sit in church and say “f**” in the services Man what if Jesus was a facade? Then that would mean the government's god I feel like they've been brainwashing us with a lot So much that we don't even notice that we're stuck in the box Man everything is “what if?”, why is it always “what if?” Planet Earth “what if?”, the universe “what if?” My sacrifice “what if!”, my afterlife “what if!” Every f**ing thing that deals with you is f**ing suspect I'm f**ing done, I'm f**ing done This is my f**ing life and I'm living it, I'm having fun If you really care for me, prove that I need to live carefully But I'll be damned if I put my own pleasure aside for an afterlife that isn't even guaranteed We are you, and you're us, stop playing games My life's all I got, and heaven is all in my brain And when I feel I am in hell, my ideas are what get me through pain Do as you please, and I'll just do me I'm a human, I'll stay in my lane Ill mind It's us, find power Live life, mind power It's us, find power Live life, mind power