Feeling Bi-Polar My mind's colder than solar systems Feeling so imprisoned like a freezer I've been frozen in Always find a good girl Get bored and turn to hoes again s*uts are into older men, its so hard to say no to them Holding in emotions that people would never know Drowning in this dark depression I wish I could rent a boat I wish I could let it go, its like hell is my second home Rarely smiled in my life, still people get jealous woah People ask what motivates me, and I think they'd hate me If they knew I took pills for depression and motivation But f** it I gotta live, and my dark thoughts haunt me And anything to get me through the day like drinking coffee These rappers forgot their content, they act like its a contest To go and grab the mic and just recite a bunch of nonsense All my interest been lost, right when swag became a topic And rap became an object just to better people's pockets But music is taking over my mind, body, and soul Alone on this lonely road, that's why I was always stoned To run away from my thoughts, I'm praying to every god That the devil don't take me and put me in any harm I'm on a road with a dead end, can't even trust my best friends Or the girl I've been seeing I come home to and have s** with I'm going f**ing crazy within the house that I rest in But still there's a percentage that's telling me that I'm blessed But still I've been losing hope, cause they don't know what I go through Or how f**ing close that I came to tying a rope noose If god gave you happiness just be glad that he chose you Cause I still ain't found mine and I'm searching like Sudoku Life stories and pro tools, people think fame is so cool I'm hesitant to blow cause when you do they miss the old you I see the future and I feel success is right here It started with a dream but it becomes a nightmare For Real Everywhere we go Nobody knows Where time will take us And even though We're lost in time We keep on moving so we don't get left behind Lost in time