Half Hearted Hero - Something Missing lyrics

I wish I knew what was wrong with me I rub my eyes but I still can't see I swear my empathy gets the best of me I need emotion or devotion To keep these thoughts at bay And I'm trying every single day Not to feel this way I feel I'm fearing that which I cannot control That fleating feeling will forever come and go On its own Give me a pillar so I can stand up straight Without falling down, to that hardened ground Where I've spent most of my days Most days I just don't say much I'd talk to myself if I felt I was worth convincing Its like my words have something missing Like conviction, or motivation I have so much to say But without substance Is it all in vain? I feel I'm fearing that which I cannot control That fleeting feeling will forever come and go On its own Give me a pillar so I can stand up straight Without falling down to that hardened ground Where I've spent most of my days I need a pillow so I can rest my head My body needs that restless sleep To feel in control instead I'm sitting in a silver steel capsule 100 miles per hour, buried under ground It's fitting, what I've found in these fractals Nothing's in my power, I'm neither lost nor found And so we study We poke and prod, and try to play God Yet the higher we build our buildings The further we seem from heaven I've bared my feet to many streets In hopes of rooting myself down deep I've waited in the pouring rain I saw my own colors change