Guy Chambers - Best Intentions lyrics

[Verse 1] Every now and then I wanna feel the escape When the depression sets in and my spirit breaks And I go out hunting demons and they make me beg Got me pissing in the wind, down my own damn leg If God wrote a book 'bout everything that he's done I'd go searching for my name, now wouldn't every one? And you can tell me point-blank that I'm a narcissist I'm just needing confirmation that I exist [Chorus 1] Please don't read my mind I'm so scared of what you'll find I haven't left it all behind So much hate 'cause of all the hurt No idea what I'm really worth I'm holding out for peace and air time [Verse 2] You have to understand that my intentions are good And everything I do I do for love I got two little souls and I love them, man That I'm trying to lead to the promised land We take ego trips out to the country side Got a big old house where we reside And there's a big old boy with a big old gun Stays up all night in case the weirdos come [Chorus 2] I had a job but I resigned Then I had a change of mind I will again if I'm inclined Another moan from a millionaire I don't know why I'm telling you 'cause you don't care I'm holding out for peace and air time [Outro] I'm a little bit older but not wiser still I was smoking marijuana, taking sleeping pills But I get up in the morning, take the kids to school And my other indiscretions are so miniscule And I really pray to God it stays that way 'Cause deep inside I think I'm still hurting When you take your chances and you ride your luck All you're really saying is 'I could f** this up' You have to understand that my intentions are good And everything I do I do for love I made a ton of mistakes, it's either fight or flight But every now and then I kinda get it right (He kinda gets it right) I kinda get it right (He kinda gets it right)