Goodnight, Texas - I'd Rather Not lyrics

I saw my father last night Walking toward a dim light I called for him to turn around but he kept walking The clouds they listened in grey To every word I would say But somehow nothing ever comes of all the talking I awaken grinding teeth down 'Til they rot I could try to deal with all the pain now But I'd rather not I wander lonesome sometimes And sift the dirt for some dimes And try to save enough to make it through the winter But the windows they break Can't keep from shiv'ring awake The crooked walls around the house, they start to splinter Sometimes I feel like I've been cut And it won't clot I could try to deal with all the pain But I'd rather not Some years they fly to the next Some inch along with the text But downs and ups are all familiar after so long I've worked on beating them down And hiding in a new town It's all easier than admitting I've been wrong I've been dealt a hand that's missing cards But it's what I've got I could try to deal with all the pain But I'd rather not I'd rather not I'd rather not