Goodlum - Spare Seconds lyrics

What I was made to do growing up I was made to hate I was just another time bomb that was afraid to wait. I refused to wait There were no spare seconds allotted for those who wanted to Decide and control my fate I was almost exclusively contrary and wary of the ways of the world that wanted to Wager and cast lots on my cloth as it unfurled I lost my innocence when I lost my baby curls Mullet gone in the first grade. Hello world The world said "hi jake." I'm meaner than I seem I'm waiting to rain upon all your hopes and your dreams So what you thinking? This should be day one stuff You watch everything fall apart thus you learn to be tough Like Okonkwo. Chinua Achebe writ it Ikemefuna versus Unoka, who's really living? Feel the rhythm of your bumps and bruises Double the tempo up. Last man standing loses Living is proven by movement it's fast and it hurts We leaders are bleeding with speed while the weak are in reverse Solutions are seen slowly cause we learn and revert We burn what we work for. We see by the light of the curse You and I will someday be riding in a hearse. Even my verses aren't impervious I'd rather fade with the world than live on endlessly just serving it Imma take inventory of everything I know and slowly start unlearning it You're scared of the end? You should see how frightening the journey is But now I'm stronger and I rap better. Became resilient and more clever Got a rhyme book loaded with hotness better than hell's weather Everything's flying by I gotta window seat in a lemmings' cliff I tend to stay seated saying “what if, what if, what if?” I'm not scared to die, I'm scared that when I do I won't have lived yet And when I look back at my calendar the empty days are chances I'll never get back Why is it so easy to see the hardships and set backs? I haven't accomplished much but it's my own fear that did that Recognize your inhibitions, we're swimming in superstitions But I'll carry 13 black cats under a ladder in an instant With salt on my shoulders I brush em off with some hard knocks Take a grain with every word you hear until your heart stops