Confused desires since my teenage years I'm the same h*mo my family fears For my blue eyed boy there's a long distance longing My behind closed doors fantasies going on And I feel wrong Forgive me father for I have sinned I must confess it's brothers with my eyes that I undress Once a day I think about k**ing myself I can't carry on I must be strong even though it hurts as I sing this song And I feel wrong God it's only love God for how long will I feel wrong?