Gemstones - Drowning lyrics

[Verse 1] I like to be empty, just so you can't get me I know that I'm skinny, I know I'm not trendy I know I'm not perfect, so don't go and hang me I'm drowning in my sorrows, so I don't suffer pain And I'm living in this moment, I've captured and owned it My last breath's an omen It only takes a second, for my mouth to open And the whole world changes with the last words I've spoken And I ain't event mad, and I am not sorry So don't go expecting another apology I'd like to say bye to all those who followed me And supported each move that I made chronologically And, I'm sorry that I couldn't do better But at least be happy that we've got some good weather Be more optimistic, it makes your life longer Which is why I'm still drowning under 30 feet of water [Verse 2] Ya see, all it really does is just cloud up your brain In a minute, I saw it, surround in flame Take it all back, back, back again To the days when we were young trying to figure out our lanes When did it all change, when did I become insane? I started losing sleep, but psycho's what I became Just waiting for the day when I could take my life back Get it on track, rewind, realize it's whack Time gets turned so that, I had never rapped Never wrote a song, never reached a hundred drafts We can't change the past, in fact we're too fast All my judgments are lapsed, and that'll always last And I will always grasp every moment that I can To be who I want to be, not realizing that I am I don't need to change anything to make it grand I just need to keep trying to make you understand [Verse 3] So I'd like to say thank you to all my enemies All the little pipsqueaks who've been trying to stop my dreams You could've joined the team but you brought me to the stream And held my head under, until I couldn't breath I feel I'm stuck between blatant hate and ignorance Take the gate, or hop the fence, make a name and stop these gents They were here from the start and will stay until the end But won't make it to my brain unless I let them come in They're all just parasites, out of sight, out of mind Feeding off the lights that are blinding my eyes Being blinded my the lies that are right in front of me The truth is right here but I can't bring myself to see Past all the lies I think I need to come clean But I don't know what about I don't know - can you please just tell me Please tell me, tell me how to feel Before I die all alone, and spin like a wheel