Gas Giants - Going Down lyrics

I've been hiding in my bedroom And my head's twisting 'round Under starry skies I'm sleeping I'm going up, I'm going down I've been manic on the phone again Understand it's not my mouth A neverending guessing game again This cursed thought is going south I'm going up, I'm going down Crying lonely, laugh out loud Trying mostly Won't you show me, show me how If you could only You can say I'm only dreaming But it's all that I can see You can pray to hollow idols But I carry them with me