Gabriel Townsell - Stream of Consciousness lyrics

[Verse 1] I've been tryna live a wide-eyed life blindfolded Stanley Kubrick My vision's been impeded by tradition-driven hubris My n***as been the same, ain't no additions to the movement but it's really fear of change that got a n***a feeling stupid I often doubt my judgment when I know it's right Hate to be the sum of all my actions but I know it's life Hate to watch supporters disappear, they coming faster every year but any time they see a struggle, n***as poltergeist, hope this ice Chill a n***a heart till it freeze over My flow is cold but it could be a few degrees colder I been working toward some visions you can't breeze through but like when Drew Brees threw the end goal was game over, game oversaturated as it stands, to put it simply So many doppelgängers, competition over friendly, and n***as eating now, in a crowd of rooted envy, but The same n***as thirsty and the talent pool is emptied But I wish em well, coin is all they gave to see they wishes fail, which is, well, more than I can say I'm making dishing hell But if I get it I promise to take a minute to dedicate all my winnings to bettering our condition, listen [Chorus] Cuz we been k**ing one another since they made us hate Then they k**ed us so our murder saved they murder face And as much as we deserve our retribution, it's the pen before the pistol if we want a revolution, what up Gil told us when we get it, television don't And Jill told us no one loves us if our people won't We been waiting for society to change, but reality reflects the actions of our present days, and [Verse 2] My mind's racing, I write to make the winner clear Dinner's near, I can feel the come up, don't you interfere Misanthropic mission topics I've debated spitting while I visit tropics dishing off the substance of my brain can only take up so much space before I start to feel depression knock I love America but feel the need to question cops I wonder if they gave me 16 shots, would my 16s live when my limp knees dropped? Uh Can I live? Gimme love, come and f**in learn Gimme life, do me right, wait your f**in turn Rhetorician spitting, I've written for what I f**in Earned I breathe for this sh** Believe for this sh** I need to exist ahead of the pack And my emergence will merit versions that's better than rap of accolades if you stick with me It don't matter which city I could rock a mic with twice the confidence of six Diddys [Chorus v2] Cuz I been writing raps since I could hardly rhyme Remember Big & Outkast was how I pa**ed the time But now my city bleeding from the chest, imma be the vigilante if it means that we can rest, uh Gil told us when we get it, television don't And Jill told us no one loves us if our people won't We been waiting for the law enacting change, but these shackles getting heavy, we gon have to act today, n***a! [Bridge] (I will not be desensitized I will not be desensitized) People fear change till they feel change, and it betters them Imma k** em softly, taste of they own medicine (I will not be desensitized I will not be desensitized) And they only let us win if we're made to be exceptions To a rule that they invented, it's the cruelest misdirection My God "I have lost three brothers to this, sir. This is not alright! I'm hurting. You see my eyes? My people out here hurting!" Heavenly Father, why you so far away? Heavenly Father, why you so far away? Heavenly Father, why you so far away? Heavenly Father Heavenly Father