[Verse 1: Rittz] It's a problem when you Can't afford to eat sh** but a double cheese from the dollar menu Gotta pay in quarters b**h behind the window pissed she sick of taking orders sh** aren't we all Ridin round on E waitin for the car to stall With a engine cut chick lookin in the mirror puttin on lipstick wishin that she lookin like a barbie doll Infatuated with all the stars in hollywood wanna wear what the rappers wore Buy shoes that you can't afford With no gas in your car to go to the packer store to get a pint of martins Wishin you could drink ciroc I had a brand new watch that didn't turn your wrist green its not cool to shop at K-Mart Girls gonna start thinkin your twat You start hustlin you was doin it a bit Now you locked up facin the face of time Every time you call home your lady cryin Talk about her period late and I'm pregnant no you ain't what you think I'm blind The doc say It's a boy we gon name him Brian He said first we gon make sure the baby mine I know you out there f**in b**h thinks I'm blind [Hook: Jihad] Sometimes it feels like there ain't no hope When all you see is darkness it's hard to blow Holdin' to the scars so the pain don't show Holdin' to the past 'cuz we can't let go Don't blame us 'cuz it's all we know This is all we know (X2) [Verse 2: Rittz] Luxuries Got a couple bucks in my pocket next to my cutla** keys Don't gotta tuck my piece Gotta couple soldiers with me attention at ease With no a**ociate degrees but still better than a drug disease We confused and lost Poppin. Loritab, Roxy, Oxy contin ...goin through withdrawals...no mood... Called my homeboy trynna shoot the sh**. "Hello" Dude its Rittz what the hell been up? He said that he fell in love with some stupid b**h in one month she was movin in Everything goin good then his boo done went and left him for a minute, had loot to spend Now he said he feels stupid, said he gonna shoot her, see the tool homie gonna do em in All I could say was keep your head up He said what is that? Never mind dog It was good to catch up Feelin that though he never really had love We all done bad sh** doesn't add up Laying with a bad b**h on a mattress So the dude like me can't get a back rub These days we pray please holla back god But I guess you gotta take the good with the bad so [Hook: Jihad] [Verse 3: Rittz] All she wanted was to have some kids And a husband, love and happiness Sayin' where does a life like that exist? No family, she ain't seen daddy since she came out the womb with a bunch of ba*tard kids who got dissed with the disadvantages So the optimism vanishes Made a wish when she lit the candle stick Like God hear me out I appreciate you I don't wanna seem like I'm being ungrateful I'm lucky that I'm livin I ain't been no angel But ever since grade school sh** has been painful I don't owe a person a explanation How am I to live up to your expectations I'm addicted to meth to say that I'm depressed is an understatement Estimation. Need some medication or at least some love My boyfriends cheatin, he beats me up Gotta best friend but shes strung out too When I talk to her she says join the club And I dont wanna die but I'm losin my will to live Please God forgive In the name of Jesus I pray Amen She hit the chittle again cause that's all she know