Futuristic - Thoughts lyrics

[Verse 1] My mind is hella hectic, day and night I drink my sorrows down, with lean and sprite I'm a s** addict and I need it tight But Mary Jane is the only women that treats me right And I think I might be just like my dad He loved my momma more than anything, that's what he said But he had ho's for days, that gave him head up in my bed And 'til this day he tell me that he don't have a single regret What the f** am I supposed to take away from that You ruined our family and you wouldn't take it back Yeah you raised me up, but my lil brother suffered And then I raised him, while I supported my mother Motherf**er, I had to get that off my chest Even though you left us then, now I still love you to d**h But that b**h you married now, is a crazy ho And I hope she hears this song on the radio As a younging I would hustle, just to make some doe Yeah, I sold trees to fiends, when I ain't even smoke But that's good, cause I was upping all my profits No matter where I went, I had some green up in my pocket [Hook] But these are just my thoughts and I'm coming from the heart [Verse 2] I wondered as a child, why I stuck out They playing in my hair, I told them to get the f** out So I cut it and my grandmomma cried She ninety seven now, thank god she's still alive But, let me rewind, there was a day she wouldn't claim me How could she tell her friends, she had a black grandbaby Raising a n***a kid is something they couldn't tolerate And now I only see her in the summers and the holidays My white cousins used to live across the street from me My grandfolks would visit them and never take a peak at me I just used to run outside, with hopes of them just seeing me It broke my heart so easily, I shut them out immediately But I forgive you for your ignorance Now I'm all grown up and I be on some different sh** But just know if I blow, you won't get a single dollar With millions sitting around, that's a hard pill to swallow Tell my uncle that there's nothing he can barrow I wouldn't give a f**, if he pa**ed away tomorrow Sorry, but I don't even know the man Hope he's a donor, recycle him like a soda can Kinda ironic how all of you is some Kobe fans But you scared of brown skin, prolly wouldn't hold my hand I understand and I see now that you trying But I can't shake emotions from inside me [Hook] [Verse 3] My momma is an angel, I love her so I can't imagine a day, when I'd have to let her go When we was broke, she was working and going to school We moved into the hood, the only thing that we could do She's so perfect, only flaw is that she need a man I tried to grow up fast, to be the best one that I can But she hates being alone, but who could blame her The only problem, she'd take anybody who would date her They just played her, while I sat there and watched her ball I told her everytime, she wouldn't listen at all It ain't my fault, but she acted like it was You dating an alcoholic, with a crazy a** son On to the next one, this n***a was something stupid We scrapped a couple times and then I finally lose it This n***a set me up and now you asking me to prove it I had my hand on the trigger, you lucky I didn't pull it And I'll never let that sh** go And if I see him now then it's popping like Crisco But that's off the subject, f** that n***a let him die After he left though, the look changed in your eyes You hated me inside and I could tell You would curse me out and I would yell We'd exchange words, that I'll never tell He thought the only option for me, was dead or in jail b**h n***a, how you like me now I'm doing my thing, I hope you proud Yeah, I know my momma is She be at my shows, fifth row hollering Buying shots, for my under aged friends We getting f**ed up, let's do it again I love her and I'm glad we how we is I respect her and appreciate everything that she did [Hook]