From Another Planet - Remission lyrics

For years and years I searched for some kind of meaning Desperate and depressed, I was a sad sight to see It took me way too long to discover that I am in control I am the generator, the motivator Only I can decide my purpose And only I can navigate my way I will not be constrained by expectations others have of me Instead I'll follow my own pa**ions; work to realize my dreams But it wasn't always quite like this And no matter how hard I try to avoid it The temptation will return Take your own life, you are nothing Your pain is permanent It appears with no warning, destroying my sanity Self-hatred embodied, I must escape Fearing for my safety, I fled to the pen and paper To explore the cause of my distress: my mind, my own lonely frontier In the absence of love and without any direction I looked deep into myself, not seeking hope, but seeking answers Answers that were nowhere to be found Why does this happen to me? It seems my mind is unsound How can I ever escape this emotion? I was defeated by my own introspection I had no one to run to, nowhere to go Bound tightly in chains that I'd fashioned myself Witless and weak, I knew no way out In a desperate bargain I begged for d**h to take me away It always returns It appears with no warning, destroying my sanity Self-hatred embodied, I must escape I must escape from the violent, self-consuming fantasy harbored inside I crave an outlet to explore my insanity I seek the tools to build a realized life I will share my perspective with the world This isn't for your sake, but rather my own in this expression I have found my home Paying my contribution to culture while relieving myself of a deadly burden forging confidence where it was never found I have freed myself from the bondage I will walk where too few dare to tread One day I'll gaze upon my creations And thank myself for never giving in I know this is all I have to give A small piece of myself that in my dreams will travel Far and wide to make its home inside The minds of others who live in fear It seems I've found a solution I'll put an end to my suffering I'm no longer searching for my way out That battle's been fought and won, for now Instead I will only seek to better myself Leaving nothing but love and hope behind when my time comes I'm no longer searching for my way out That battle's been fought and won, for now