Francois Dillinger - Meditation (The Message) lyrics

Don't mind my voice . . . it's a lil' raspy right now The Message . . . Here I go . Verse: Hey momma I'm coming home, & sh**'s about to change Know I ain't been the same been lost in a mental maze Now I've been going through sh** & I think it's just a phase But i'll be glad if you help me with it cause this is a crucial stage A troubled teen, barely coping with his life Suffering from anxiety contemplating taking his life The thought alone, kinda makes his life easier Only way to stop the pain is to stop breathing yo & the pain come in abundance Smart cousins need education but ain't got funding The rich out here eating while the poor out the starving & these days rappers releasing nothing but garbage Hear sh** on the radio & think the f** is you doing ? I came from he ruins, now the game is what I ruin Wear black all the time cause everyday is a funeral & know that when you die you go to a better place So don't cry when I leave dry your beautiful face I seen the love get mixed up & confused with hate Trapped in my mind, trying to pull a prison break Friends & enemies can't tell if they're real or fake & barely knew my father, lived with him for like 2 years & even though he tried, when he died, I didn't cry tears Not to say it didn't hurt, cause it did But he was barely there anyway, so it was no big Always keeping to myself Never worrying bout myself Cause it's a Cole world, that's why my emotions' is stealth They rob you of your soul, all for some wealth Using substance as a rehab for reality Cause that sh**'s hard & I swear I can't handle it Feel like OD'ing, but i'll wait till 27 Cause sometimes I feel that's the only way to die a legend n***as laughing at occupation like im Cedric Oh you ain't get it n***a, I was going more for Kendrick Or maybe J Cole mixed with lil Jimi Hendrix Spit that real, but always keep that green with me Ye I always keep that green with me Pardon the pain in my voice