FR33STYLE - My Father lyrics

[Verse 1: FR33STYLE] My father left me at the age of three You'd be foolish to think it doesn't ever affect me Now all of the sudden I'm the man of the house? Kind of a hard position to fill when you got the confidence of a mouse Yeah I've said this doesn't bother me before Maybe I'm good at masking the pain and showing restrain But the rain from my eyes is starting to stain I can't hold it inside forever Somehow these thoughts will have to show That feeling is coming up real quickly Cause I'm about to blow! Knowing how many times I needed you makes me so mad The hardest thing for a boy to do is become a man without his dad Now who am I supposed to look up to? Will my older brother or grandfather do? Oh, that's right I don't have them either It always should have been you! Was that too much of a burden to bear? Better leave me on my own that seems most fair I mean you know you have a son out there somewhere But it sure seems like you don't even care This topic crosses my mind every Father's Day What a grand waste of a that should've-been holiday Might as well celebrate with a stranger off the street Cause we've already spent more time together by the time we meet! Don't get me wrong I understand having a father figure is always one thing I'll lack And that the reality is that you're just not coming back