Foreign Forest - Mal w/ NxxxxxS lyrics

[Intro: Foreign Forest] You hear me talk, but you don't talk back Under my skin like 'where the rock at?' Get out my head piece, can I be dead please? Without your presence I got no meaning When all this ended I couldn't see it But now you're gone and I'm f**ing bleeding [Hook: Foreign Forest] If I can't love you then k** me now Cut me like a ribbon let me f**ing drown No you then there's no where I wanna go No you then there's no one I wanna show If I can't love you than k** me now Cut me like a ribbon let me f**ing drown No you then there's no where I wanna go [Verse 1: Foreign Forest] Mental dissembling f** the feelings I'm gone til December, Spring Still I run to the door when the doorbell ring Then I go hit the store for a pack of green Oh stop, smoke the THC Exhale the bullsh** when I'm watching the vapor Enabling myself to heal in the time Immune to nothing it seems but it's fine Never been able to draw in the lines So I'm swerving the lanes like its mine Closer to you every second I'm closer to you every second You dead and I cannot get past Hopefully see you the second I crash [Chorus: Foreign Forest] If I can't love her then k** me now Cut me like a ribbon let me f**ing drown No her then there's no where I wanna go Without her there's no where I wanna go If I can't love her than k** me now Cut me like a ribbon let me f**ing drown No her then there's no where I wanna go No [Verse 2: Foreign Forest] Struggling to find my purpose Now kinda feel like I'm worthless Putting all this sh** in my body Got antibodies trying to prolong my heartbeat No stopping this train to destruction They do not see in my mind Working my shift trying to act like its fine Then I get off and damn I be left with this time God damn, I'm in a vicious cycle Might go to bed but I'm sure I won't sleep Still got that shirt where you cried on my sleeve Last year I would not believe that this would happen to me No no Knife to my throat I need to know though Take away and then I go and then I overdose though Hope you get that I'm serious Give her back to me period So I can stop being delirious So I can live my life without hating f**ing everything