Flowz - Mental Prison lyrics

Yeah yeah [verse 1: flowz] I'm trapped inside a mental prison Sentenced to life with no release At night i sleep next to a knife and hope for peace My mind won't let me dream so i'm cursed by these nightmares Visions of my younger brother's blood all over my hands I'm sick of waking up covered in sweat Because i'm paranoid that my mates are f**ing my ex See i'm f**ed in the head from all the d** i ingest I have a heart made from stone there's no love in my chest There's so much i regret i've made so many mistakes And yes i do believe in karma so i'm very afraid I'm not mentally sane Definitely missing components And i'm missing composure when i handle the blade I can't handle the pain that i feel when i'm sober And the ending feels closer as i stand on my grave As a man i'm ashamed that's why i hide my emotions The only time i expose them is when i sever my veins [hook] Will i escape from these chains that i'm trapped in Or is my fate destined just to fade in blackness My brain is stained with the madness And every time i look into a mirror i see the face of a madman Will i escape from these chains that i'm trapped in Or is my fate destined just to fade in blackness My brain is stained with the madness And every time i look into a mirror i see the face of a madman [verse 2: flowz] She's knows i'm in a tight grip Just like my hands around my throat My mind's sick from all the methamphetamines i smoked Now my memory's a ghost lost forever in a brainstorm Where the dark weather stays and forever the rain pours I can't escape war the fighting never ends So of course i'm gonna go and f**ing hit the pipe again My life is bent i don't think i've ever been straight And time spent now is with d** and never with mates I have a cancerous fate there's no cure for this sickness I'm past the point of no return i'm permanently twisted I'm murderous when drinking fueled by revenge So that s*ut can only hope that i never see her again I'll be leaving her dead She won't be talking sh** when i'm f**ing eating her flesh And the knife is deep in her neck I now dream of my d**h stuck alone inside this mental prison Where my screams fall on deaf ears as gentle whispers [hook] [verse 3: peepz] Depression is up you can't win You can just suppress the symptoms I ain't letting them in [?] Because i'm ok but i ain't listening I am different i am f**ed in the brain Something has changed something is missing Cut to the rain jumping in front of a train d**h my ugly mistress f** that b**h i don't want to know the who*e She's the overlord to my sober thoughts So i smoke this draw till my throat is sore I've got no conscience stored no control any more f** the doctors they're nothing but impostors Chuck you on them tabs leave you feeling lost kid You don't know what the f** that i've been through You can keep the tissues give me a pistol I ain't scared of you i'm scared of myself Scared of what i'll do to everyone else Did i go overboard did i go crazy on d** No it's just the prescriptions the doctor gave me bruv Gave me bruv Gave me bruv [hook]