Florist - Cool and Refreshing lyrics

I'm so terrified of all the things I love I know that I will lose them all one by one But that's not what I think about when I look into the sky, I see sunlight that is blinding and it just hurts my eyes And I'm trying to be fine but I lie about the things I say will never die Like memories, forgiveness, and the light inside my eyes It's terrifying It's totally fine Think of me by the creek in cut off jeans holding onto something that has meaning to me I don't really think my life will ever make me as happy as Kaatersk** creek I'm trying to be good but I'm done No wait just kidding, I'm not 'Cause I still have that feeling of water above my knees It's cool and refreshing And that won't fade away