Flawless Real Talk - Pressure 3 lyrics

You'll never see the pain I hide behind a flipped frown, That's why I always pace and its so hard for me to sit down, Showed em I was right when they told me that I should quit now, been fighting for my life and I just hit the 25th round And it aint over till that fat b**h is singing could give a f** if I'm winning cuz I'm going out swinging! I don't know if its aggression or some sort of depression I get into and begin to lose sight of all of my blessings,The hate starts to spread through my body like an infection when I never have the answers to problems that I've been stressing, why you think I do this music? I'm trying to bring a check in, I need me an intervention this has become an obsession! Cuz I gave up everything! Strictly for the mic,Lost a crib and a wife with a kid, did it twice,Cuz the one I got now is about to walk out of my life,She hates I'm in and out of town and ain't around to hold her tight, But I don't trust no b**h cuz to me their all alike she's telling me that she's at work she's probubly getting dick tonight! N I know I would of cut her, if I knew I didn't love her except we don't even kiss Aint even talking to eachother,N my daughters missing daddy so it makes it even tougher,To see rapping as a job when my whole family gotta suffer! I lost another still I'm sitting here relying on the fact that there's somebody out there that wanna sign em! But I'm getting sick of rhyming,They say this game is timing,I just gotta put the time in and continue with the grinding,But that was 06' and I don't know where all the time went,That's why I don't blame Gif for leaving all this sh** behind em They say I got "it" and I just gotta get the shinin, maybe I ain't flawless and theres a crack inside this diamond! I was praying on my f**ing knees,God just give me something please, Then I got the call about the tour and it was tough to squeeze,k**ed it like its nothing we were buzzing like a couple bees,The way we stole the show me and my team were like a couple thieves, Felt like I made it and I didn't wanna f**ing leave but then it faded now its nothing but a f**ing tease! Can't even f**ing breath.. But this is my pain...its way more than rap this is a mind game,And it's been f**ing up my mindframe cuz everytime I think I'm right there its like God let his mind change! That's why I wanna let this 9 bang!Cuz I dove into this b**h headfirst and caught a migraine! Real talk till the d**h of me,This sh** got the best of me,Cuz I got nothing else and now this has to be my destiny,Used to think when everything would happen God was testing me,But I feel like I don't know how much fight I still got left in me...