flatsound - I'm so concerned about the ending that i don't even know the plot lyrics

i'll start it off by saying i'm not one for the complaining you wouldn't know it from my writing, you wouldn't know it from my songs but i am different, i am free, i am what you need but oh my god, i miss you more than i thought was possible i understood the obstacles, but you could've tried more sometimes it seems, i need a mom more than i need to eat so i didn't eat and i didn't sleep i'd go all day without a bite, and it's not my fault it's not my fault and i'll admit, sometimes my chest gets so tight that i throw fits you said you'd always be there, where are you through all of this? 'cause this is hard, this is way harder than i thought i'm so concerned about the ending that i don't even know the plot except for i am different, i am free, i am what you need so you think of all the things that make you sad and don't include them in your better half 'cause i'm not like you i don't find happiness in a meaningless existence don't know what I'm going to do but i am different, i am free, i am what you need and yeah i believe that there's a god, i believe that there is something out there other than my thoughts i believe it was never science against religion, it wasn't poor against wealth, it was always me against myself and I'm so scared who's gonna win 'cause i wake up feeling so sh**ty it's been so long since you've been with me i don't know where this old body's gonna go or myself but i know i am different, i am free, i am what you need