Flameboi Tetri - Inspire Me lyrics

Yes I am a victim of anxiety And honestly I'd rather breathe oxygen than the lies they speak I still hold my family on a pedestal that I can not reach Best believe, suffer from the things that I cannot preach Actually, invincibility is my own an*logy And I'm just tryna live better than what earth has given me I still have times where the devil over powers me, devours me spits me out like that's what life's about Narh n***a, I still believe in my future and my pride n***a I still wanna see my sisters live they life n***a I still wanna open doors for my young n***as I'm still depressed but I'm not on suicide n***a Hard to believe n***a? Heart of a king and soul of a wise n***a I'm not a suit n***a and I'm not a trap n***a but when the rain hit ya I'll be your umbrella I'll be the shade for you Cause even if you hurt me I still got love for you I don't hold no malice I aint about that "I'll k** ya" But if you do touch my fam n***a I will k** ya I'm not Avicii man my levels never beg to differ I'm still searching for myself I'm not a lost winner I'm still going hard on earth like I'm a huge driller I body in silence yes I am a smooth k**er Smooth operator, I got the vision I don't start wars I end em don't get it twisted You stay on xan and perk to stay highly lifted I'm not on d** I'm not a soul that has life scripted And I'd rather solve the puzzle than to f**ing skip it I see the world in extremes yes I'm a Tommy Dreamer I don't switch sides in bad times I'm a loyal n***a I still pray to the Lord that's my jiggy jigga I got the blue print to my life like I'm jiggy jigga And honestly I still f** with prophecy that speaks about a youngins future without him planning it I still got my hopes up for life in the after life I wanna see God even if I gotta die tonight And thankfully, I bless the f**ing woman that made me My pillar of strength without you there's no me You took me, raised me, never tried to change me and for that I'll thank you until we become history Yes, I take fam serious like a game of chess I don't wanna lie I searched for the devil's chest But I know that's not what I could invest My time in life is way better than that chest So yes, I'll accept I'm not a perfect n***a but I'm perfect in my views I never asked for much but I asked for the truth Yes I've got to prove but got nothing left to lose