Fern - Venetian Blinds lyrics

[Verse 1: Marty] I want to be somebody to believe in And things I took for granted I'm not leavin' They don't understand the movement that we leadin' So people hate us and don't even have a reason I've got my own problems I'm not sleepin' And every girl I dated always tries to get even Tries to get me back because I know that I hurt 'em I always let 'em do it cause I know I deserve it I broke your halo, I know I'm not perfect I want to stay together like we're cursive But we fighting everything we surface She might stay together for the purses I'm writing words do I have a purpose And I give you my life although it's worthless And do something with me but I'm nervous And these are my thoughts behind the curtain [Hook: FERN] Behind the curtain where you can't see Pull it back, who's that, say it ain't me (no way) It can't be, where's my mothers son And we crash because you don't know where we comin' from Behind the curtain where it's plain to see Me broken down, hard for me to hold it down (what) I thank God for serenity Beats tranquility Free from captivity [Verse 2: Tragic Hero] You don't laugh when I say I'm focused on my career Hoping that new make-up I buy you can soak up all your tears For now here's some money and a Bible on a dresser with a gun next to it in case you got to send a message (send a message) I'm on a road and you alone and I heard about a k**in' We hard of hearin' from the Lord, my ear's to the ceilin' My 9 to 5 k**in' me Runnin' villains in the night when my mind runs in And is filled up with adrenaline Had a few I'm in and out of school Half awake, my boss in and say I'm bending all the rules My wife looked in my blood shot eyes and didn't see us Th-th-that's when the room got quiet like a Prius (why) To the me when I got wrong When I spend my time writin' songs I don't blame you if you want to leave it all You cheaters, goldfish up against piranhas I ain't perfect, I just do wanna deliver broken promises [Hook] [Verse 3: FERN] Young brother on the block trynna make it pot We on the strip, trynna make it flip My DNA said otherwise Blood bars, don't confuse us with the other side You can say I'm a wretch, but amazing grace When I meet Him, get to see my Lord face-to-face (what else) I'mma break down thinkin' 'bout the cold nights Overdose status but you never let your boy die Personal things I leave on this track forever Using this here as medicine, I feel better Let's get one thing clear I can't save you But the King I speak of and to is a saviour (yes) I make Daniel like Xavier Been in the den but my God had me raised up Huh, and to you I live crazy Until you come take it Social Club major FERN [Hook]