Eyedea - Even Shadows Have Shadows (Spoken Word) lyrics

I stand alone Burned every bridge over the troubled water No longer hiding from my personality disorder A stronger tide is coming and I've been running Trying to function fine with out my mind Climbing out this f**king corner I was born a thorn away from the rotten petals A forgotten rebel Pa**ed through the absence of parentally hands To develop an evident level of benevolence So it's probably better I sold my sold to the devil This is a message to anyone I met that thinks they know me Don't pretend to understand any of the issues that I'm holding I was in a rush to grow up, look Mom no cuts Just a stomach in disgust, and the fear That I might go nuts this year If I don't swell up I'll see you one my way One day this sh**'ll k** me but I guess that it's OK I've lost all fate in a world so full of hate I don't f**king love music I just use it to escape I'm caught between wanting to punch someone in the face And putting a bullet in my head to leave the human race Everything takes its toll but there's no tolls I can take I haven't yet found a good reason to be awake Introducing the corroded bumps I had behind my smile I'm angry at the universe for the way she treats me now And keeps me down, stealing all my energy I'm feeling like my enemy, concealing my identity Not dealing with my tendencies I peel the skin and then I squeeze The real imprinted Hanse's disease Not human in this century, I'm ill until the entity Who built this penitentiary, It's filthy as a centipede And guilt was in his sense cause he was willing to Just let me breathe, While I wore a game face In 10 years don't check for me I'll be in the same place This planet is just an overpopulated mental hospital Each zombie walks around constitutes another obstacle So here it is I'm finally coming out my shell All 19 years of my life have been in conflict with myself I'm insecure by every facet of the existence From my addictions, to the conditions I choose to live in Who you kidding I suffer from excess anxiety A product of pollution in American society Stare into my eyes and see the hell that burns inside my mind And I no longer have an ego I can hide behind But I've been trying disregarding my insanity Every form of hurt isolates me from humanity But it's provoked against being force fed So F**k education for a decade and 3 years Of headaches from my peers Cause now I realize I could have learned more on my own They taught me how to know everything except my soul Which is everything I need to grow Everything that keeps me whole Everything that ever meant anything to Eyedea So I leave with golden hope To rip the beast that holds my focus But the fact remains the same, I'm still bound by chains It doesn't matter if your chain is 10 ft or 100 ft The fact remains the same, you're still bound by chains So people say I've changed, and it's harder to relate to me Good, I never liked you our friendship was make believe I'm peeling the mask back and revealing the rap thespian Feeling my organs drilling distorted short portions Of morbid acid keeps the torture unfortunately crafted Interests to orbit my portrait and inflict my image with disorder The minutes get shorter, the walls start to close in Feels like the brain is hanging on but with clothes pins I've hidden in the darkness for too long I make it look all right but in the inside its so wrong I want life to change but I don't know if it can For a man or machine or whatever the f**k I am I stand alone burned every bridge over the trouble water No longer hiding from my personality disorder You want to die in my life then come and stay In madness' favorite little corner Cause even Shadows have Shadows And my secrets are eating me eagerly feeding I scream in my dreams Away but they keep on defeating me Even Shadows have Shadows Welcome to the dusty subconscious of an actor Who murdered his childhood to stop the audience's laughter Even Shadows have Shadows I'm about to break free from my fears When I don't like what I see And I can't feel what I hear Even Shadows have Shadows So don't judge a book by it's cover Cause my story is f**ked up as any other!