Eyedea & Abilities - A Murder of Memories lyrics

Sometimes gunfire's brighter than the sunshine Sometimes a child's scream influences every dream Sometimes we fool ourselves into thinkin' we've moved on But no way, no how, do we ever forget what we've seen No way, no how, do we ever forget what we've seen No way, no how, do we ever forget what we've seen No way, no how, do we ever forget what we've seen No way, no how, do we ever forget what we've seen It's now twenty-five years later, he's on the brink of fourty-three Still searchin' for sanity, surveyin' the floor of his distorted sea He remembers high-school friends jokin' about the war Never knew what Mom was cryin' for The other piece that shines in his mind Is the divine first-love soul-mate beauty brown-eyed queen he left behind He remembers holdin' her tight, watchin' the sunset at shore Never knew what she was cryin' for He got the letter in his mail by the middle of his summer Wouldn't have had to go if it wasn't for his new born brother He was barely eighteen, murdering people even younger And he still ducks and covers every time he hears the thunder He still hears the screams, smells the flesh, tastes the d**h Sees the blood, feels the pain What's to gain? Nothing's left but the slug that remains in his right path The bullet laughs every time he cries, and it drives him mad Trying to sleep, but the visions give him a cold sweat The war's been over for two decades, but he still hasn't been home yet Everyday he wakes and strains to repress his guilt And forget the horror, the violence, the k**-or-be-k**ed Fists are always clenched, teeth are always grindin' Real life is lost, and in a bottle he tries to find it "It's not fair", he mumbles through a nightmare Only in the fight for two years, and wound up spendin' his whole life there He was face to face with the devil for the "welfare" of his country Now he's strainin' to live, but his conscience won't let him It ain't flashbacks, you have to understand the tragedy, see He left the war, but the war never left him, see He left the war, but the war never left him, see He left the war, but the war never left him, see He left the war, but the war never left him, see He left the war It's now twenty-five years later, he's on the edge of a park bench He's asked God for help, but found his source non-existent He sits in the shadows, 'cause his sun burns no more Now he knows what Mom was cryin' for I used to watch old man in the park, the sight slowly drove right Through my heart Wishin' I could help, but not knowin' where to start I'd walk away, curse the world, gush some love, and curse some more Now you know who I've been cryin' for He threw his medals in the river, but they sunk alone Put shades on his eyes, to hide him from the war zone in the sky He tried to slit his wrists about a month ago But he's seen so much d**h, he's scared to life of suicide If there was some way to break him out of this penitentiary Gulps get bigger and figures it'll chase away his memories But the dreams only worsen, the scenes almost burst in He recalls how training took away his right to be a person Put a gun in his hand, left him to die with the land The plan was the murder of man Politicians have a dispute, decide to send in troops But the truth is, they just don't understand Now he's runnin' out of time, and runnin' out of energy But till the last day, he'll be fighting for the murder of his memories And although he never got rid of his dog-tags He still wishes they'd have sent his parents and american flag (instead of him) He was face to face with the devil for the "welfare" of his country Now he's strainin' to live, but his conscience won't let him It ain't flashbacks, you have to understand the tragedy, see He left the war, but the war never left him, see He left the war, but the war never left him, see He left the war, but the war never left him, see He left the war, but the war never left him, see He left the war Sometimes gunfire's brighter than the sunshine Sometimes a child's scream influences every dream Sometimes we fool ourselves into thinkin' we've moved on But no way, no how, do we ever forget what we've seen No way, no how, do we ever forget what we've seen No way, no how, do we ever forget what we've seen No way, no how, do we ever forget what we've seen No way, no how, do we ever forget what we've seen