EXPSR - Somehow lyrics

[Verse 1: EXPSR] Everything in the making Still slipping deeper in the matrix Yeah, how far could I go deep down the pavement With no connections on this road I'm taking? I know we're not related We're on a different fragrance You seem so satisfied with just good enough While I just strive for greatness I'm up, my eye lids open and my mind racing Stressing bout all the time wasted Got a deadline in like five days and I Cannot find where my motivation lies Aww, maybe, I will fall chasing My goal's huge and I'm out of patience Just another day with nothing changing Feeling out of place in my home, crazy Hope the liquor save me Though it wasn't lust Thought I really was in love But she's just a picture lately I must admit I'm faded I feel the room spinning right around me While I switch a song that I can't stand But that might have been my favorite A time ago but I'm changing I might have loved but now maybe Just memories with our faces I keep burying with new pages I keep writing them in new places Been out to Denmark, now I came back And I'm thinking how to escape this To start from scratch or erase it, somehow [Verse 2: EXPSR] Got doubts I feel it greatly I still try to keep evading I found a way to keep them fading I'm fine got tired a bit from blaming Myself, I might have been too hating Sought violently for vengeance I tried finding things that made sense Now I'm firing my engine Trial tribulation I'm trying revelations I stumbled on half faded There's more to life than I made it There's more to die for than a paycheck Personify me, never fake it Yeah, f** a nine to five, can't take it Need a lifetime vacation I don't give a f**, never gave it But I can't quit, what I'm saying? Why I'm going for it is it crazy? How you gonna make it When nobody in the country never made it? What you gonna say When everybody out here will see you failing? On the couch sinking Deeper in my thinking Spent so many minutes, hours Put like hundred thou' in this Want a pool full of liquor So I can f**ing dive in it Want a room full of b**hes So I can lose my mind in it, alright