when we were lost, we were saving every texture taking breaths in every silk ray candlelit nights blurred by dreams i never knew and the land you crossed in my mind pointed fingers straight through the back of my heart my hardened shell was your only defense, you swore "i looked up once and i was enveloped..." these paths i can't even spell and i know i used to feel you, and i know the things you used to say and all the time we'd spent pennies in pools as deep as oceans and hands in hands as warm as now. and it seems so unreal, you're not in these memories. ..