Evil Child - Tears, Sweat, And Allusions lyrics

Turned off by fear And I cant remember what to do I cant remember how to act Dont remember whats true I dont know where to turn to, answers arent too clear Or maybe they are truths to which we cant hear Left alone and waiting, waiting for a cue Tired of pretending of knowing what to do Ill run away into the night Ill leave him here alone Leave all this behind left to be unknown Ill finally fall down to my knees Ill turn away and forget my memories I cant explain the way Ive felt for him from the very start But everytime I see him it just breaks my heart Love is an allusion lived in fantasies Reality is more confusion of that from which we flee Life is cold and bitter we must struggle to survive Dreams and my allusions are what keeps me alive I dont know where to turn to, answers arent too clear Or maybe they are truths to which we cant hear Left alone and waiting, waiting for a cue Tired of pretending of knowing what to do Wounds cant heal when they keep tearing open I cant see straight cant see whos my friend Who Ive loved has always been stolen Im always driven out in the end People take but do nothing because he's not mine Why does this sh** always happen all the god damn time Im sick of it all I can go with out him in my life Im tired of all this pretending Im tired of all the strife Again return these feelings of anguish and dispair Again comes this shocking pain that I canty stand to bear I dont know where to turn to, answers arent too clear Or maybe they are truths to which we cant hear Left alone and waiting, waiting for a cue Tired of pretending of knowing what to do